I was born by the river.

I am at that point right now, where I feel like there is something just around the corner.  Just around the riverbend!

I keep circling with ideas and thoughts and then there is something else.  Something else that is just lingering behind a blind corner somewhere in the depths of my mind.  I dont know what it is, but I do know that it is going to effect whatever path I choose to walk down.  Some awakening, epiphany or realization that one of these days is going to jump out from behind that blind corner and go BOO!  Now heres what you gotta do.  Do it!

Feeling banana-y, not peachy

Newest revelation.

I think I would like to change my focus in school to Social Sciences with a minor in Physical and Health Science.  I am looking for all possible ways to get finacial aid so that I can go back to school FULL TIME this time, work maybe 20 hours a week, apply for food stamps, and get my degree finally.  Social Sciences will open me up to all kinds of Occupational Therapy.  Music therapy, Animal Therapy, Energy work clinics, I can expand into Herbalism, and I think this will be the best option for the path I want to take.  I also discovered that a  bunch of the classes needed for the major will apply to the physical health science minor.  AND PSU offers FENCING!  I want to take sword fighting and have it apply to a degree.  Thats awesome.

In other news, I need a good book to read.  Any suggestions would be fantastic.

This year I aim to gain Nourishment

And so I write myself a letter.

Dearest Lara,

Above all else, I wish for you to feel the energy of life, of love, of everything beautiful.  Feel it pulse through you, and radiate with it.  Let it shine through your eyes, and smile knowing that each ray that kisses the face of someone else will pass on that nirvana.  It is why you are here.

Love forever,

Yourself

I aim to find nourishment in the following:

Food

- go grocery shopping, cook new foods, use cook books, bake, expand knoweldge and use of herbs and spices, try to eat 3  meals a day, take vitmins and herbs

In action

-Throw dinner parties, have people over for movies and games, keep the house clean, redecorate, take time for Lara, Go out to see music, go on excurtions, take little trips out of the city

In self improvement

-Dress and look like I feel epic, Take more yoga, quit smoking, listen to my body, take more bubble baths, drink more tea, and less alcohol

In Sensuality

- Dance, Drink wine and eat chocolate, go to PIX, Go to the theater, share the sensual Lara with more people, Love yourself!, get excited, cry at beauty, take long walks, go to the coast… alone.

Thats the plan.